self-destruct in 5,4,3,2...

1!! its now the official start of hols.im missin him real bad ald,2day go out wit priya they all also no mood ald.although we'll still b in same class nex yr,i still nv wants to lose sight of you.i hope by goin 2 cambodia,it will me distract my self. its rainin heavily now,my moods lik shit ,lik a stupid lovesick or isit lovedrunk girl.alamak...all i c is...BLANK,no colurs at all.rahayu they all were lik tellin me say y my face no expression one,wat kinda expression shld i hav?im not happy.nonono im being stupid!! okok i m goin 2 look at the bright side!!but theres no brightness??haha,ok not funny.


I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm older

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
And I wanna feel, I want to feel what love is
And I know, I know you can show me

Let's talk about love
I wanna know what love is, the love that you feel inside
I want you to show me, and I'm feeling so much love
I wanna feel what love is, no, you just cannot hide
I know you can show me, yeah

tired ald...

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side


I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight



i broke up wit him last week.he claims he loves me,haha is tat so?all talk n no action ,anyway im i duno?sorta glad but sad. im givin it up 4 guys ald.they suck,and friends snatchin yur guy?haha heard of it?im tired of all tis ald,i jus wanna do nth now n treasure my time wit my close frens,they undstnd me best.i love them:)may god bless me

F u man

u r fucked up man.im a wat?dog?irritatin?u ask me 2 go 2 hell ,bang my head,jump down.FUCK u man,u n yur fucked up attitude bout yurself.-GUY H

u!!o man i hate u 2,u blow hot n cold.u dun bother bout me n leave me hangin by d thread.i swear im nt botherin bout u ald.u cn b sweet ,ahh chocolates evrydae,bt u r oso obnoxiously rude.u haven called me eva since we argued on thurs .wat m i 2u?a toy?fucku-guy S

im in a veri bad mood 2 dae,jz nw aft i tlk 2 hakim.im smilin:)haha his blog so cute,so..ronaldo,haha.teng u r rite...smth big is gonna happen soon.it all depends on whether i cn get over my own thghts ,if i cnt...GOODBYE.
hakim is so CUTE lah,hahahahahahaha

n o yes,its chrysentheNUM rite!!!i dun care.:)

happy hari raya!!

yay!!happy hari raya 2 all malay frens!!:D especially kaya!!happy eatin haha.i gt bf lik dun hav bf laidat.i hav tried my best ald n been veri giving,u dun want 2 tell me anything,fine.u r always busy,fine,i undstd.wen i told u tat we were 2 b better off on our own,u said,nono,thers no prob anymore,evrythin settled .ok fine,u promised me aft 09/09/09 tat u will b by my side always,u didnt,nvm.fri u said u would wait 4 me,whr were u?if i didnt call u n found out tat u were at home...haha who noes.anyway...i think..i shall leave now

at least i noe that there r ppl who r concern bout me wen im sick,upset,happy.wat did u tell me,"drink more water".tats all ok. no fone call nth.but nvm i undstd,,u're busy ,i shall juz wtch n c den...

haha ,i thght i would nv fall 4 u...

omg.haven't written 4 a long time,bt im alive. :) life is gd?actually ok lah.nt really.

js wanna sae baby,im always there.though i admit.i dont love you,but im tryin hard nt 2.u promised me u'll nv mk me cry,bt u r makin me doin it,im worried 4 u honey.bt i undst ,i will give u d time n space u nd.im sry 4 nt trustin u.

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Boy you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be


But...im afraid tat once u hav settled evrythin,yur feelins will fade..haha den i guess i'll hav 2 tk a risk,coz baby i think i fell 4 u.u noe aft those constant contacts,n suddenly no more,its gonna kill me,bt i'll survive.remember wat u promised me honey?tk care n best luck 4 all yur probs n exams,darlin.

hello!!

o god,finally i cn use com liao.juz bck frm NDP,veri tired.anyway nex wk i think we go marina bay.yay!!!finally.sian,i o9,so suay,nobody o9.we r goin 2 hav camp on tue wed n fri,yay again!!cnt wait,so fun coz we plannin,haha.gotta go bck sch on mon 4 amaths exam,hais..den tue we meetin at sch again wit ms lee n go NTUC shop 4 things we nd,aiyo,body ache lah.veri tired,bt the atmosphere aft the marching is GREAT!!!

i love the song "21 guns" n "battlefield".so nice!!!love it .i dunno y leh.

9.40

i feel so irritated man...wat the hell,no voice liao.this SUX!!cnt tlk,hav 2 write on paper,hope will b ok on mon ...i dunno y oso leh,throat hurts lik hell,bt althgh no fever liao ,gastric is fckin pain,cnt sleep at all.hell was yesterdae n 2dae,vomitted,fever stuck at 40 degree,saw doc,took a jab.veri pain leh...my mum sae i laidat oso cry,wen its lik ants bite,where gt ants bite???wa lau,anyway 2moroe NDP i nt goin coz i dun feel well still,ltr faint hw?i noe,im smart,althgh i cnt tlk i cn still type ok?

walau 2dae tk 4 paper in a row,maths (2),chem ,POA n physics,physics=fail=me DEAD. hais...den teng sen me home,aww u so sweet teng,thank u,n wen i reach my hoiuse bus stop,heavy rain,so uay gotta ask maid 2 bring umbrella,nt gd 2 gt sick again..my gastric start again,so i juz force myself 2 eat a little lor. anyway i cnt wait 4 mon ,duno we gt our results nt?

den shayne joyce rahayu n priya wen 4 bowlin,n i couldnt go coz nt feelin well,n teng ,hais she so nice i duno wat 2 sae...she had 2 wait 4 me 4 lik 3 hrs+ 2 finish my papers den sacrifice dowan go out wit joyce they all bowlin n instead kip me company n sen me home,thank u!! :)


back 2 real wrld.i cnt sae anytin so i hav 2 use tis chance,last bit of wat i hav 2 sae:
We're trying to take it slow
But we're still losin control
And we're trying to make it work
But it still ends up the worst
And I'm craaazzzy
For tryin to be your laaadddy
I think I'm goin crazy

Girl, me and you were just fine (you know)
We wine and dine
Did them things that couples do when in love (you know)
Walks on the beach and stuff (you know)
Things that lovers say and do
I love you boo, I love you too
I miss you a lot, I miss you even more
That's why I flew you out
When we was on tour
But then something got out of hand
You start yellin when I was my friends
Even though I had legitimate reasons (bull shit)
You know I have to make them dividends (bull shit)
How could you trust our private eyes girl
That's why you don't believe my lies
And quickly said shut up